On Habits (or the lack thereof)

For those of you just joining the show you haven't missed much. Over the last few years I have posted approximately 30-35 times, with no pattern other than a stint of commitment last year during my excursion across this lovely country. Even that was mildly broken and trailed off after a promise to complete the details of my trip met with my eventual return home, resulting in my musings once again relegated to collecting cobwebs in the far reaches of my mental archives.

I'm not sure why I seem to have trouble with this form of exposition, I enjoy talking to people, I like having conversations about topics which interest me. I enjoy thinking about things and I enjoy writing. Why would I falter when combining the previous two concepts? Possibly it's the idea that a blog is not usually a conversation, at least when someone as non-famous as myself or some other mere mortal is at the helm. For the most part a blog post is a broadcast of a certain point of view, with no response from "the other side", whatever side that may be. Perhaps someone comments and from there a thread is born but on the whole most paragraphs and pages stand alone as a testament to nothing more than the opinion of an individual.

While considering this however, another side is revealed, where when a conversation isn't started, when outside engagement is not established, another purpose is served. The purpose I speak of is memory; that years from now I could return to this place and see what my thoughts were on subjects which, by then, will be far enough in the past that they have faded or been cast in a wildly different light than the glare of the present. In this way, this place, when failing to achieve it's desired purpose of mutual enlightenment, can still serve a purpose for myself, reminding me in future times of what was important to me now.

In conclusion I wish, in the coming months, to create a new habit for me where I put thought to paper(or electron as it were) regardless of my initial misgivings of, to adapt a phrase, merely typing to hear the click of the keys. I want to put things here that are important to me, regardless of origin or genre. I want to create a digital place that I can return to in my next life and say "That is who I used to be and part of who I am still". To those who may read this, feel free to chime in wherever you like, conversation is still a primary goal of this environment.

Let the new habit begin here and now.

p.s. the newer posts will be more cohesive and purposeful, I needed this to order my thoughts on the subject prior to setting off on this particular journey. TTFN