The Beginning of a Long and Fruitful Relationship

I've never done this before, and for a long time I didn't think I was going to. A few of my friends got into it and, although I've only read one post of one of those friends, they all expounded on the lovely nature of blogging.

So here I am, at 11:30 at night, when I should be sleeping, preparing for work tomorrow. I am sitting in front of a computer screen after quantitating myself into a few boxes of the books I enjoy and movies I like, the title screen of Dan in Real Life is playing on a loop in the background and, strangely, I don't find it annoying. I didn't really have a goal in mind when I decided to create this site, I sort of just got the idea and it didn't leave. Perhaps it's a subliminal urge for the contact of new people, new faces, places I've never been and experiences that haven't happened to me yet. There are so many things out there that aren't quite yet and a place to process the things that are or have been, before the aren't yets join the have beens, is probably pretty welcome to most people.

I don't know what I'll write about but it'll probably vary quite a bit. In some ways this will probably be a sort of journal, and on other days there might be some creative things that I haven't done in a long time.

I don't think I'm going to tell anyone that I'm doing this, and I wonder if any of my friends will stumble on my page and figure out, without reading my name in the sidebar, that it's me they're reading about. Isn't that the one of the goals of friendship? To have someone know you so well that they can tell your words and thought patterns from a stranger? I suppose that it would be more of a result, the goal being a bond of trust and reliability.

Then again I have friends who I don't trust with some things and others who aren't particularly reliable. They're my friends because when we are around each other we have a good time and we understand each other. I think most of humanity wants to walk into a room and not have to explain ourselves. We want to be accepted and thought of as innocent until proven guilty, to actually be given the benefit of the doubt, in a world where assuming the worst of someone you meet is common practice and perfectly normal.

So I guess my revised definition of friendship is a relationship where you don't have to prove yourself, where you can retreat to at the end of a terrible day where the worst possible things happened and look up through tear filled eyes that say one thing and one thing only; understand me. Friends are people who may or may not be the most reliable individuals, probably have some amazing character flaws and a have few pet peeves that annoy you to no end, but when the chips are down they're the people who you want on your side, the ones who might not agree with you but are there anyway. Friends, real friends, are hard to come by and usually take a lot of work, but life's a lot harder without them.

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